im a rapper

i dont know why

it is just falling off my skin lately

the best feeling

my body is too tired, too sore

but my heart wont let me stop.

my body worn and exhausted

but i want nothing but class.

i want to plie over and over

again and again

drill drill drill

its got me hooked.

somethings got me hooked

i love the pain.

i love getting it

i love sweating

i love trying

and smiling

i love messing up and laughing about it.

all i have to do tomorrow is dance and eat.

:]

iiiiiiiiiii

dont know why that hurt so much.

it did.

which i didnt expect or understand.

its not like im on my own sitting here being lame.

except that i am..

hurthurthurthurthurthurthurt

But I don't care if I fuck up
I'm going on a date
With a rich white lady
Ain't life great?
Give me one good reason not to do it
(Because we love you)
So do it

i just cant wait.

for someone to like me.

so simple.

its going to be great when someone wants to be around me as much as i want to be around them.

its going to be great when i dont have to keep driving down fucking one way streets.

its funny, i say im sick of receiving, i want to give

but thats total bullshit.

because sometimes i really dont receive.

i still give, but whats the point?

im sick of these one way streets.

my dad started drinking again :(

he wasnt going to until his birthday.

his birthday is in march.

i dont blame him, thats a ridiculous goal.

but i wish he had made it.

teach me how to play piano.