Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

shits goin down.

i didnt know how else to explain myself

so i just said

its really coming down now

everything is really coming down to the end now.

you freaked out

you told me

stop

that i was scaring you.

but it might not be so bad.

it was kind of a relief.

nothing can get worse

i think im at the bottom now.

submission

i think its worst.

somehow that sounds good.

i dont know why.

i dont know what im going to do.

but i think its gonna be ok.

i know hes there.

thank god for that boy.

im like giddy about it.

im like a little girl.

im already way ahead of myself

but i dont think he can handle my crazy.

at least not yet.

hes pretty happy.

i dont wanna ruin him.

poor thing.

i love him.

hahaha

its ok

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Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

im scared.

im really really scared.

i dont feel like i did last night

now the fear is just making me want to push more

in the wrong direction.

now i feel shameful and embaresed and challenged and alone

and scared.

and i know now im not getting anything from you.

i just wish denny would come home.