No one's going to fool around with us

"Total Freedom"...

i am liberated.

every night i do this.

every night i do this.
i think of it all and imagine myself getting up to write it down.
and i dont.
and i sleep and forget.

every night i do this.
i see hope or fear (often both).
every night i love
every day i remember.

every day i remember.
today i thought
when asked
about
freedom.
and i remembered. and cried.
ill never be there again.

the threes dont light
i see no stars
in the daytime
the sun is the only star i see.
i sleep before the others arrive
because in reality
they are a memory
of what used to be.

what used to be was nothing special
and thats just it.
you dont know freedom till youve lost it.

give me what i want.
do not let me be spoiled
to not let me be hard
i do not believe in hope.

i am not unhappy.
i am not unkind.

i do not want the default.

i never have believed in hope.
i once believed in love.
i do believe in lust.
i am not bitter.
i do not believe in love.

IM SOOO EXCITED THAT YR COMING!!!!!!





ps: im really glad to have met you.
     i want you to be happy.

im in it for the love of the game

"there is no dance more interesting than a human being"
-carolyn adams <3

BIG DAY

tomorrow is the best day ever

#1!!!!
master class with ROBERT BATTLE!!!!

#2
lec/dem!!!!

#3 KARLS BREAD!

#4 FACULTY SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jessie desalvia

is livin her life

(ayayayayay)

and all that shit.

what a biddy

MEETING MY OBSESSION SAM TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg i so excited.
i hope he wears his glasses.
i love him.
i stalk him.
i know everything about him.
i want him.
hes a biddy.
GOTCHA GET YOU INTO MY LIIIIIFEEEE!

jacobs pillow = where i belong.

you cant have me cant have me cant have me back

ericas class was everything i ever want to do.

i wanna sit here and cry about battleworks being gone but im also so proud of robert for aliey.

AUDITIONS TOMORROW. SHOOT ME.

i reaaaaalllly reallly really wanna work with danny grossman.

or jude<3<3

or carolyn.

so ive got a pretty good chance of working with one of them.

dannys piece is for 18 (yesyeysyeysyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyes)

and im soo excited.

ALSO.

 have a crush on jude and hes everything i could ever want in a man and more.

ALSO.

carolyn adams setting a new piece??!!!

like jesus please let me be in it.

but anyway working with maggie or laura or ERICA would be amazing too.

soo excited. 

at about midnight tomorrow we'll find out.

madia will torture us until then.

im improving my solo tomorrow :x!