No regrets. No regrets.

lets never meet.

i bet yr used to having things in yr mouth - dentist day quote

yay! yay! yay! 


sometimes even crippling back pain is a good thing.










yeah i make hats and my dentist thinks i have exquisite enamel. WUT.

even if no one else in the world thinks im exquisite, i will take solace in the fact that my dentist does.

im not worried about who you think i am

sometimes just repeating the things i wish were true helps. 
i say it until i believe what i want to believe.
fearless
fearless
fearless
fearless
i am. 














later on ill cry my stupid eyes out. later on im crying like a baby.

greater than dirt. less than wolf.

insignificant
is how i feel
and stupid
for thinking i knew.


i just sit here crying like a baby
with some character who used yr name
increasing the tension in my shoulders
and apologizing between breaths 


because
i cant
be 
fearless


all the time.
and i 
am not.
boundless


on the one hand
80%
on the other
round down: zero.


cry my stupid eyes out
you cant be fearless all the time
with such a deep need for reassurance
i refuse to believe my eyes unless im told.


sitting here bawling with characters of people 
just to keep them alive
when me
in real life, the actual me
has taken (round down) zero effect
on the real life, actual you.


dont make me feel like i missed out.
you missed out, too.








i miss you so much.

i decided on infp

INFP

creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, prone to quitting, prone to feelings of loneliness, ambivalent of the rules, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, low self confidence, emotionally moody, can feel defective, prone to lateness, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, frequently losing things, prone to sadness, prone to dreaming about a rescuer, disorderly, observer, easily distracted, does not like crowds, can act without thinking, private, can feel uncomfortable around others, familiar with the darkside, hermit, more likely to support marijuana legalization, can sabotage self, likes the rain, sometimes can't control fearful thoughts, prone to crying, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, can be submissive, prone to feeling discouraged, frequently second guesses self, not punctual, not always prepared, can feel victimized, prone to confusion, prone to irresponsibility, can be pessimistic

THANK YOU MR. T LITTLE!

matt&kim<3

just wanna know you! whats wrong with that?!

join me as i change the sheets on my bed
join me where i was sometimes
i know how to run away
i go out to commit my crimes


its good
i liked it when i feel like now
its not a word
its a taste in my mouth


if you listen you can hear it
that sound in my ears
my mind screams
but not at fears


im just who i am!
whats wrong with that?
it doesnt matter who you fool
you always go back


i was little
but i wasnt someone else
when i grow up
i want to be myself


i think you forgot
that im already gone
im sorry you forgot
to say so long


*


sneezing is like an orgasm
kissing is like a test
swinging is like an orgasm
kissing is wet


i like the taste
of things that dont exist
i like fake fruit
i like lips


i like feeling
like a touch
i like covers
(and pillows and such)


your spit was a code
a code that said "okay"
my spit had a code
mine said "no way"


when you say "sheets"
i think "owls"
when you say "sad"
i think "chocolate"

its just a little fucked up. thats all.

GOD DAMNIT.
ITS JUST A LITTLE FUCKED UP.





its so fucked up.

i sometimes pretend to be lonely but i dont think thats true

its about time i start learing french

:)

I AM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYY












(it still makes me nervous to admit it)

on the inside, this is what i look like

you say you dont know me but you really do
i dont know everything but i know the truth
she gave me eyes so i could see through clouded doubt
but i just cried so she ripped them right out

__________________

so put on yr backpack
yr feet in a puddle.
turn over yr hourglass
and go lookin for trouble.
shes making her plans
as she whispers to me
"we all go down
eventually"
shes gone like a ghost
to places i wont go
she told me secrets
i didnt want to know.
she made me promise
things i cant provide.
she knows her way
she finds what i hide.
she tells me what to do.
she feeds me my line.
around my neck
she keeps my time.