greater than dirt. less than wolf.

insignificant
is how i feel
and stupid
for thinking i knew.


i just sit here crying like a baby
with some character who used yr name
increasing the tension in my shoulders
and apologizing between breaths 


because
i cant
be 
fearless


all the time.
and i 
am not.
boundless


on the one hand
80%
on the other
round down: zero.


cry my stupid eyes out
you cant be fearless all the time
with such a deep need for reassurance
i refuse to believe my eyes unless im told.


sitting here bawling with characters of people 
just to keep them alive
when me
in real life, the actual me
has taken (round down) zero effect
on the real life, actual you.


dont make me feel like i missed out.
you missed out, too.








i miss you so much.