sang

We got in the most bloody awful car crash.

More blood than I've ever made flowed into you from my veins.

Shards of your car were so deeply rooted in me you could see bone.

The windshield was smashed and everything was unclear.

I had never felt more calm.

You came running and grabbed my soaked arm.

I sat still while you pulled me out the misshapen door though I probably should have helped.

An awed smile spread across my face and that was the most I could muster.

My only thought was to catch your eyes with mine in my last few moments.

I sent you waves of appreciation and admiration since my mouth wouldn't cooperate.

You handled me so gently..

As I felt the pebbles in my skin, the back of my mind muttered some ingrained worry about infection.

but I never really cared. through too long of a journey I looked up at you.

Blood plastered your hair to your face and your eyes were consumed by concern.

Your mouth was slightly ajar and I wondered how your lips might feel on mine.

I heard sirens in the distance and wished they would turn around.

You were kneeling by me now, saying some beautiful words I will never understand.

I tried to sit up and you put your hand on me.

That was the only moment I needed to live for.

Blood immediately started pouring out of my mouth as I coughed and heaved.

You moved as a scared fish and your face was crooked and pained.

More blood came out of me in waves.

More blood than I had ever seen surrounded me in a great pool that reminded me of baptism.

Then I stopped, feeling like I had been freed of everything unnecessary.

Your hand was on my collar bone, keeping me connected.

I heard a man who wasn't you and he came to take you away.

I suspect he was god.

I felt everything in slow motion.

I remembered every touch of your hand as it slid away from me.

They worked around me but they were too late.

In my last moments of life, I had lived.

You will never know what I was on my way to do in that car.

You will never understand how silly suicide sounds in hindsight.

Death was such a funny ending.