all i want now is happiness for you and me

id like to write something new.

i have no idea what to say,

i feel kinda different.

the suspense is killing me.

when will i come down from this high?

its starting to make me doubt everything it has taken me so long to realize.

it kind of makes me feel like everything ive gone through up to this point is worthless.

i honestly cant put my finger on what im feeling.

i know:

i dont like to hear you talk and laugh on the phone. especially when im not sure who youre talking to.

i feel better when i dont see you.

i can honestly count on you.

i wish:

i knew if what i was doing was effecting you at all.

i knew how you feel about me.

i could understand you better.

i want:

to be at the studio. all the time.

to fast forward 5 weeks into the future.

to be able to accept feeling happy.