Basically, I wish that you loved me

no one

posts

anything

anymore

and

its depressing.

I'm not in love
I just wanna be touched

my nightmares take me apart

just to let me know

that i should tell you

everything i hate to show.

words i cant say out loud

im pathetic, but still proud.

i can only feel hate for you

and for the you in me too.

ive never wanted to hurt anyone so bad

as i did last night

to see you bleed

would give me such delight.

and they made a comment

i simply couldnt bear

and i lost it

right then and there

i screamed it all

you watched me fall

i tore my heart right open

and looked up at you,

tragic and broken.

you laughed in my face

it was so real

you'll never know

the insanity you made me feel.

that was the most honest

my dreams have ever been

no victory

no playing pretend.

they took me away

like camille claudel

the sound of your laughter

drowned out everything i tried to yell

it was the hardest thing

to wake up to

because it was

so true.

and now.

i dont know what to do.

because i know

i have to tell you.