yr lame. just leave.
idk. i just wanna cry now that youre gone come back.
the next few weeks are going to be hell.
i wish i could get my fucking head out of my ass and try to do well in school.
i dont even wanna try anymore.
it makes me sick how i am.
whyyyy.
cant.
i.
get over myself.
and fuckin take care of my life.
idk.
idkidkidkidk.
no amount of help can get me on track.
i think this is just the way it is right now.
im scared.
i feel like ill never get out of my rut.
not because things wont get better
but because
of the way i am
i feel like
i will continue to think my life sucks
even if it doesnt.
i just get pissed off for no reason.
my whole life is gonna get fucked up.
cuz im not trying.
and im so pessimistic.
and i dont wanna do anything right now.
im fuckin stupid
about everything
baaaaaah.
nope
not
nevermind
screwed
fucked
fucked
fucked
fucked
am i supposed to be like this?
or am i just being a fucking baby
and i need to suck it the fuck up.
and get good grades. and go to sleep.
and eat my veggies.
god damn.
there aint nothin to dream.
i dont wanna think
about it.
i wish they didnt care.
and i wouldnt have to feel bad.
and i could do what i want.
i cant think. i cant think. i dont know what i even want. one thing. maybe that. but i cant live there.
ohohohohohohononononononono.
stop it.
youre freaking out.
over nothing.
get a
life.
go to
the fucking store
go to the life section
pick out one
a fucking one
where you dont sit on your ass
and feel bad.
and then get it.
and try it on.
guess what?
yes
im blogging
bl
ogging
instead of getting my fucking life together
and i dont even wanna stop.
i dont even know what to do
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
ok
bye.
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