weird weekend.

bad and good.

everything is kinda blending together.

it will seem like less after taylor and then xmas show are over.

right now its pretty crazy.

im worried about school a little.

or a lot.

i wanna drop APworld but i already paid for my test :/

i kinda dont feel like i need to as much anymore.

maybe i dont need to.

but then i saw that person

and i got scared.

cuz i dont want to feel like that.

i do though.

just a little.

but of corse i would never say it.

because i really like that person.

i think it will be fine.

a little more time.

Three's such a crowd
You ought to tell me what you tell yourself
You ever going to speak it aloud?
Do I have to guess like everyone else?

the worst parts almost over.

my hair is gross. im gonna have to wash it. picture day is tomorrow. FML

i try not to think about that.

i mean i know its not completely true.

but it feels like it.

all the time.

and its the saddest feeling.

but its ok.

it could be worse.

she doesnt even get that.

but its impossible.

you are the only one who is always with you.

and when you cant stand yourself

for being so silly

and knowing yourself too well

and not knowing yourself at all

it gets hard.

guilt.