maaaaaybe i should have happier blog posts (i bet you 5 bucks this will be emo by the end :p)

hmm lets see. i dont even know what to say today.

im kinda hyped for the turkey bash. and for christmas. my sisters.

yeah this is boring when im not emo.

but thats the blogging problem.

i cant just say erghwrjthogijwerog anything cuz its not a journal, its a blog.

its not just mine.

it will be ok.

cuz every night

no matter how bad my day was

when i lay down and give up

i can forgive myself for the day

you get that moment where none of it matters

every day

no matter what

it doesnt matter how much shit happened that day

or how much you fucked up

its always there when youve given up.

but thats the other blogging thing, i have a different take on it than journaling.

i feel like i can look at things a little less

heavily.

but thats why i still have my journal

for when i neeeeed to do this

not just cuz im bored.

i make no sense

too bad,

its my blog so fuck sense.

i do feel bad.

i know its not all cuz thats just how i am

i am sorry about that

in real life

even if i shouldnt be